Thread:WillTheArthurandBusterFan5050/@comment-4039124-20150225173100/@comment-24669562-20150225184319

Hi there,

That's cool.

I don't use the Phineas and Ferb wiki.that regularly so I'm not always sure what to do. Plus I have Asperger's. It's no excuse, I know, but I just eanted to let you and anyone reading this know. I want people to know I'm autistic.

I also left the message on Modster's wall because he was a mod and I've spoken to him previously about the subject. I didn't know any other mods and not sure I spoke to any right now, except maybe RRabbit now that I think about it. I also wanted to share my thoughts with him (Modster) just to get something of my shoulder or something. It was more for him than anybody else.

Maybe I should have posted this in a forum after all. When I was in the blog page, and I thought of posting it as a blog, I read the policy, and then went straight to the page about Blogs, and what they are and not.

I'm on other Wikias and the rules vary.

So I decided against blogging what I said and decided to talk to Modster, whom I know is in college as he said and I didn't exactly expect him to respond immediately, and I've been to College for 8 years so I understand. I graduated and am finished in case you're wondering and I NEVER ever want to go back.

Though I said what I said, originally the message was supposed to be shorter and just something like this:

"So Phineas and Ferb has ended. I guess I'll never see a railroad crossing on that show now." It was more of a lamentation than anything else. I might have also planned to add something like "I can write a fanfic about it." And maybe "I thought of writing a fanfic about it and let Dan and Swampy use it." But not exactly word-for-word, but hopefully you get the idea.

Mind you, I'm deeply interested in railroad crossings, obsessed with them as a matter of fact, have been almost my whole life, especially gated crossings and those with lights, or best yet, both. And I do watch for them on animated shows or on any program having to do with trains animated or not and I'm looking for animated programs with railroad crossings in them, including on Netflix and found one so far. And crossing signals and gates on animated shows tend to be different than real ones and few, or only some cartoons (animated shows) show realistic, or almost realistic crossing signals and gates, by physical appearence and functionality. And I like some animated crossings more than others, some I don't like as much. I'm kind of picky when it comes to railroad crossings. I want to see them, but I want to see them in certain ways.

But back on topic, my autism is no excuse for my decision. I should have used the forum but chose not to and will take responsibility for my actions.

What I didn't know was my message, intended to be personal, would become public discussion. I mean I figured others would chime in, at least I think I did, or did I? But I didn't expect it to be worth discussing on a forum, although I have a feeling some will get critical with me about some of what I said.

Okay I'm not saying a lot of this right and am not sure what words to say, I'm kind of struggling to talk, and I know I'm not making much sense and please excuse me for that.

This message has gotten too long already so I better just wrap this up. Thanks for informing me of this. I'm sure you did thevright thing and had good intentions and I'm not in any manner upset at what you did.

This makes me sound like a jerk. I was trying to talk nicely and humbly and I hope I did. If you're feeling guilty, please don't feel that way. Now I really feel like I was mean. Oh I hope I wasn't. If I sounded mean, I'm truly sorry.

I'll just stop now before I say anything else stupid. I refuse to subject you to hurt and guilt and I refuse to upset you or anyone else, especially on purpose.

But thanks for informing me of this. Have any questions or comments or concerns, please do not hesitate to tell me.

Over and out.